on babies. my babies.
it's interesting having a third child. sort of funny. funny that i have had two other babies yet each one has been such an extremely different experience.
velzy, oh you blessed/poor first child. everything was new and confusing and different and urgent- like when we had to go to the dr cause i was sure she had reflux and needed medicine to stop puking all over. it was an eye opener. it was overwhelming. it was wonderful. it was a constant state of confusion- am i doing this right? is she ok? and reading up on every milestone while learning a whole lot about myself and having my heart grow exponentially.
then a quick 18 months later enter ivy. when she was in my belly she would kick velz anytime she sat on my lap. things were chaotic with two oh-so-little ones and i was a tad overwhelmed at times. my arms were always full- full of babies, poopy diapers, sticks and rocks from nature walks and excitement. things were crazy but fun and i wouldn't have it any other way.
three and a half years later lola sling shot us back into baby mode. i still forget to grab diapers when i leave the house. and i don't know how i thought life was going to be when she joined us but i life is definitely better with her in it. i find myself just hangin with her, and throughly enjoying it, enjoying her. although i have seen my fare share of baby smiles and heard many-a baby giggle and coo in the last 5 years, everyone that comes from her is still exciting. i really do just hang and talk and smile with her as much as i can. i think that is the difference. in the past i have been anxious for the days, weeks, months to pass. and although i am wanting her to grow up a bit more- how much longer till she can sit? crawl? walk? swim? i also have taken to enjoying little miss lola and the chunk of baby love that she is.
it also helps that she doesn't hit her sisters, tell me she doesn't have to listen to me, or cry/weep/wail when she is put to bed, or tell me i am old and have wrinkles on my face, or that i have a big butt. and funny enough, recently, she sleeps better at night than ivy does.