Thursday, January 20

just a quick thought

on babies.  my babies.
it's interesting having a third child.  sort of funny.  funny that i have had two other babies yet each one has been such an extremely different experience.
velzy, oh you blessed/poor first child.  everything was new and confusing and different and urgent- like when we had to go to the dr cause i was sure she had reflux and needed medicine to stop puking all over.  it was an eye opener.  it was overwhelming.  it was wonderful.  it was a constant state of confusion- am i doing this right? is she ok?  and reading up on every milestone while learning a whole lot about myself and having my heart grow exponentially.

then a quick 18 months later enter ivy.  when she was in my belly she would kick velz anytime she sat on my lap.  things were chaotic with two oh-so-little ones and i was a tad overwhelmed at times.  my arms were always full- full of babies, poopy diapers, sticks and rocks from nature walks and excitement.  things were crazy but fun and i wouldn't have it any other way.

three and a half years later lola sling shot us back into baby mode.  i still forget to grab diapers when i leave the house.  and i don't know how i thought life was going to be when she joined us but i life is definitely better with her in it.  i find myself just hangin with her, and throughly enjoying it, enjoying her.  although i have seen my fare share of baby smiles and heard many-a baby giggle and coo in the last 5 years, everyone that comes from her is still exciting.  i really do just hang and talk and smile with her as much as i can.  i think that is the difference.  in the past i have been anxious for the days, weeks, months to pass.  and although i am wanting her to grow up a bit more- how much longer till she can sit? crawl? walk?  swim?  i also have taken to enjoying little miss lola and the chunk of baby love that she is.

it also helps that she doesn't hit her sisters, tell me she doesn't have to listen to me, or cry/weep/wail when she is put to bed, or tell me i am old and have wrinkles on my face, or that i have a big butt.  and funny enough, recently, she sleeps better at night than ivy does.

15 comments:

nancy said...

Ash - i really appreciate this post....as I am in the crazy "am i doing this right" stage of your story it is so good to hear that life with 3 is still awesome and you really ENJOY everything...i don't think i enjoy van enough...i, like you were, am looking forward to him getting older...thanks bf you are the best...

Sallyseashell said...

Awesome thoughts on babies. A lady at relief society leaned over to me the other day and said,"I can tell this is your 3rd baby because your relaxed and enjoying motherhood, yet your gobbling him up like he could be the last." I thought she described it perfectly.

echo said...

i like your thoughts.

chanel said...

the 18 months apart thing is HARD (for me) I want to be better at it- more FUN LIKE YOU, SO THANKS!

And i'd put soap in the mouth of the one who said you have a big butt, cause hello! LOOK AT YOURSELF! You're AMAZING looking and that it is post baby 3- you kind of make me ill. kisses! ;)

The Trotter Family said...

I love to hear this from you because I have been watching my nephew lately and it seems SO much more difficult to get anything done. Everyone tells me things are different when they are your own, but the experience has me very scared of having another. Glad to hear that you are enjoying her as much as you are. One day, when I get brave enough to do it, I hope that I can be as relaxed and together as you are with all three!

Smiths said...

I am finding myself enjoying and soaking up the all the baby love I can cuz I finally realize how sweet and easy baby mode is. I think I'm going up to give Olivia a hug right now!

stephanie joy said...

These are sweet observations- I want to read more! You could write a mommy book and I'd be all about it. This makes me excited to perhaps one day embark on the third kid journey too. Keep it comin!

liko said...

that last bit reminds me why i probably want another baby asap!! no hitting siblings, no being sassy/defiant...

Aaron and Meg said...

I loved reading this. We're definitely in the first stage right now, but are soon to enter the second stage with the next one coming--they'll be 17 months apart. You are such a fun, energetic mom. I hope I can follow your example and soak up the smiles and laughs amid the craziness.

Missy said...

this post was so perfect ash. it makes me want a third.

i loved the second commenter too. so at ease and gobbling it all up.

Da Denninghoff's said...

Love it!

heidi said...

amen sista!

Kaity said...

I need another baby. Lilikoi has been biting, hitting, pulling hair, and throwing temper tantrums lately. Every time Danny looks at her he says, "She's not a baby anymore."

Denae said...

Thanks ash. I needed that post. Maybe there is another baby in there for us someday. You do forget how much you love your own & how wonderful everything they do is.

.Ang. said...

I was thinking the same thing as Stephanie! There are some people that make me afraid to ever consider having more, but then I read this and I think... it would be nice to be back at the baby stage again having more experience, and 2 older kids in school...

:)

I think you are pretty cool Ashley!